After stepping back from the bustling worlds of acting, music, and dance for almost two years, I embarked on an unexpected journey—one of self-discovery as a writer. This pause was not merely about leaving behind a familiar stage; it was a vital opportunity for reflection during my physical transition and a chance to realign my internal world. Finding my voice amidst the noise became essential as I sought to connect more deeply with who I am, both personally and artistically.When people ask why I pressed pause on my career, I often respond, “I needed to hit the reset button.” I wanted to shed the weight of expectations—not only from the industry but also from myself. My decision to immerse myself in writing has since become a cornerstone of my identity. While my past remains a part of me, I am now shaping my narrative instead of allowing it to shape me.
In my recent work—a psychological thriller set in Brazil, along with a new play inspired by Lili Elbe’s diaries from 1933—I’m delving into themes that resonate deeply: the quest for acceptance, the struggle of being seen, and the complexities of identity in a world that tends to pigeonhole us. My play intertwines Elbe’s journey with my own, connecting my experiences during my transition in Brazil and New York, reflecting a continuous search for belonging and self-acceptance.
With four months of recovery behind me after my surgeries, I’m realizing the importance of freedom in life—the same kind I once felt while playing cherished characters. I want to be liberated in my artistic expression, embracing opportunities that allow me to explore new dimensions of myself. However, this freedom does not solely depend on me; it also hinges on the perspectives of others. I’ve grown weary of having to explain my identity, even though I am immensely proud of it. This need for explanation can sometimes feel naïve, and I firmly believe that neither my identity nor my art should be confined by the limitations imposed by others.
Exciting projects are on the horizon, and I can’t wait to share them. After a two-year hiatus from singing, I’ll be returning to the stage to perform at 54 Below in May. This moment represents a significant reconnection with the art that has always been my lifeline. I am also working on adapting and starring in one of my favorite Brazilian musicals in English—an exhilarating challenge that will allow me to share my culture with new audiences.
One of the most daunting challenges I face is opening myself up to new people and experiences. For too long, I kept my circle small, fearing the risks of misunderstanding and the unseen dangers of exposing my true self. Yet, as I’ve begun to embrace vulnerability, I’ve discovered the beauty of reaching out. This expansion of perspective has revealed both the complexities and limitations of my previous worldview.
The creative process can feel like a rollercoaster ride. In this challenging industry, finding the right collaborators is crucial. I aspire to work with individuals who understand the depth of the stories we tell—those who are willing to venture beyond the familiar and who recognize the potential of bringing fresh narratives to life.
Through this journey, I’ve come to terms with the fact that it’s okay to feel uncertain and to take risks. I have learned to appreciate the importance of community and open dialogue. Vulnerability has become my bridge, allowing me to connect with others and inspire them to discover their own voices.
At this juncture in my life, I am focused on self-acceptance and personal growth. I am learning to be kinder to myself, embracing my quirks and imperfections. There is an undeniable beauty in that—an artistry in being unapologetically real.
As a woman, artist, singer, dancer, writer, and producer, my journey encompasses navigating the transitions of identity and fully embracing who I am. The “he” and the “they” that have shaped my path have guided me to the “she” that I cherish today. I strive to explore all facets of my identity and to infuse the same freedom I’ve discovered in my personal life into my art and the opportunities I pursue.
This exploration is about recognizing the complexities of life and the multifaceted nature of our identities. I hope we can celebrate not only the journey but also the vibrant tapestry of experiences that define us and the stories we create along the way. In doing so, we pave the path for others to embrace their unique identities, free from the limitations imposed by societal perspectives.